Self Care: Anxiety and Depression

08 Monday Jan 2018

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It is an entirely natural thing to feel down as a human being. We may feel this way due to societal pressures to be “perfect,” our plans have failed, or life just below chunks of shit in our face.

Now, I suppose a disclaimer is in order before I proceed further. This blog post is not to forego professional help from experts, but to highlight my experience as a person who struggles with depression and a dissociative disorder. I highly recommend a good therapist if you are having a severely lousy time or even medication to get you out of the downward spiral. I have done these actions to make sure I survive these dark times.

The following will be a collection of natural ways I use to maintain my good mood and to help drag my ass out of a mood hole if needed.

Medications

I am not a fan of taking any modern medications for most anything. However, sometimes it’s necessary. If you are suicidal, an herbal remedy isn’t going to work fast enough to help. I also think that some people need to take these medications, and there is nothing wrong with this need. If you need it and it helps you, then do it.

The reason I don’t like it is that people tend to want to make us into meat robots. Personally, I think that being sad or mad or any other negative feeling is a bad thing. It is not wrong but just a natural response to stress. It just is more extreme in other people.

I am very into prevention of these bad phases that pop up. If I have to take medication, it is a bad time, but I realize that I am lucky enough to be able to stop them when I feel like I can handle myself properly again.

For me, the medications make me feel like I lose a part of myself, but it gives an “I don’t give a shit” platform to work through overwhelming issues. If overly worried or depressed about not being able to change the things about life that are undesirable it is hard to see reality. So, medication can help this fight tremendously.

Wow! That sounds perfect! Sure! In the short-term it indeed does, but to me, there is a downside. At least for me. The meds tend to conform you to “norms” and make you into the perfect meat-bot. I hate it after a few months, so I eventually I found natural options. However, please do what works for you!

Counseling

Medication is very useful in working through your problems paired with counseling. Counseling helps you create coping methods when times are hard. Plus, there is nothing like getting shit off your chest. These people are like modern day priests. You go in and confess your “sins,” and they cannot tell people you love. Instead, they give you something to work on until the next session.

These people must be saints in there own way. If you think about the exchange of energy that goes on, you sit and tell them negative things that no one wants to hear, and they take money for it. This way no one can complain about you being a downer.

I have found a few great counselors. This person encouraged using the Tarot and mindfulness in order to help cope with my issues. With these coping mechanisms, I was able to notice that I have a cycle of feeling like garbage. Because I now know about the cycle, I can do something at those particular times to hopefully prevent anything from becoming blown out of proportion.

Hypnosis & Meditation

These two may be very similar, but there are some major differences. In hypnosis, you are a willing participant in the exercise, but in meditation, it is more about relaxing the mind so you are not worrying so much.

Hypnosis

I have been to a ton of sessions in various hypnosis protocols, and I am secretly trained in these techniques. I say secretly because I do not have a practice. I do believe beyond a doubt that these exercises can help ease both depression and anxiety if the individual wishes to get rid of these issues.

In order to really work, the person needs to want to change the issue. If they do not these exercises will not work. There can be a secondary need an individual has that they do not wish to get rid of such as the person gets attention because of this condition.

Hypnosis is a relaxation exercise with an end goal in mind. This can be smoking cessation, weight loss, relieving anxiety, etc. You go into a deeply relaxed state, but do not think that you are not in charge! You are and you can wake yourself from this state. So, you are still in charge of you! This might be a big deal for those who like to stay slightly conscious of their actions.

Hypnosis and stage hypnosis are very different things. So, do not expect to be made to bark like a chicken or something similar. People have different tolerances when it comes to hypnosis to hypnotic inductions, so not everyone will be as easy to put into this state like others. Stage hypnotists can pick out who will be easiest to induce into a “trance.”

Meditation

Specifically, mindfulness meditation can help you relax when you’re overly worried, or your brain is racing. At the same time, you are re-framing what you chose to focus on while your body is in a more reactive state. When you feel overly anxious, it seems to help calm your heart rate and control your breathing.

There are a ton of guided meditation apps that you can download to your phone, and there are YouTube videos as well. You don’t need to do it for an hour unless you want to, but I know that I am not great at doing anything like that. I wish I could, and ideally, I would.

Supplements

Herbs

I use plant allies daily to help me maintain my composure on a daily basis. Every morning, I consume a few types of herbals on a regular basis. Tulsi, Peppermint, and Ashwagandha are my main allies. These are what is known as adaptogens in herbalism.

Adaptogens are herbs that are useful in helping the body adapt to stressful situations. When it comes to herbals, there are several rules that you must follow. You must make sure that the product you are ingestion has the actual herb, not just filler, and all of these are from a reputable source.

I tend to think of herbs as a preventative measure. Some herbs cannot be taken in the long term. Eucalyptus is a good example because the plant can act as a neurotoxin when used in the long-term.

With all herbs, you should start out with the lowest dose possible to make sure you do not react adversely to them. Treat herbs as if they were medicine. They can interact with conventional medications. Balance is the key, and you don’t want to make your symptoms worse or get sick.

In addition to these herbs, I take a tablespoon of Apple Cider Vinegar every day. Taking this helps boost my energy and helps with lower blood pressure. I notice a huge difference if I don’t drink it for a few days, but mostly to do with acne. ACV will help prevent breakouts.

For the love of all gods, please water it down before drinking it. It tastes pretty rank alone at first, but eventually, you end up liking it. I recommend getting Bragg’s apple cider vinegar. Its flavor is the best in my opinion, but either way, you want one that is organic and with the “mother.” You can also make a batch if you’re handy.

Vitamins and Minerals

Vitamin D is helpful for your mood as well. Since we have moved more to indoor jobs, a lot of us do not get enough sun. Seasonal Affective Disorder often happens when the sun is at it’s weakest, and we don’t want to do anything other than lay under a blanket.

A physician performs a blood test to see if there is a deficiency. Preferably if you do need more Vitamin D in your life, you will go outside more or eat more leafy greens. However, if you’re like me, you just take a supplement in the form of a gummy.

Magnesium is also essential to our health as well. While it doesn’t seem like a deficiency in this mineral would effect anxiety on any level, it does help. Mostly, I just use a little every day in my deodorant, because it’s best when absorbed through the skin.

Diet and Exercise

Diet

Now, the bane of my existence, the sweet stuff. Sugar is the enemy of a good day from what I have found. I had a horrible addiction to candy after I quit smoking. So, not only was I eating sugar all the time, but most foods in the United States also contain sugar. So, while you cannot escape it entirely, it is possible to cut it out.

I started noticing a pattern. When I ate candy, I hated my life, and sometimes I would lash out at people. It was great, but not really. While I still eat sugar on occasion. I’ve noticed that I don’t react as extreme as before. I have done a ton of research on this, and it’s one of the worse things for your body.

Exercise

Exercise is beneficial. Moving around and working with your body gets the blood flowing. The blood flows more efficiently throughout the body and also the brain. It is also more important to stay active, and not just exercise.

So, if you have a sit-down job, experts are saying that this can be just as deadly as eating lard each meal. Thus, it is super important for you to stretch and move around throughout the day.

Ideally, you should not be hurting yourself and be in constant pain. That’s bullshit. Do what you can do, and make sure it’s fun for you. Be active within your abilities. Garden, walk around the mall or swim. Do something you love, so you will always want to do it.

Depression and anxiety can feel like a person is fighting a dragon, and your job should you chose is to be your knight in shiny armor. You just need the shield and the sword to fight it off. Some battles are going to go better than others. That’s okay. It’s not a race, but a journey.

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Making Magick More Powerful

01 Sunday Oct 2017

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There are a plethora of reasons why magick operations or rituals peter out after you perform them. It happens Incensefrom time to time. It happens to me too. It feels like a form of magical erectile dysfunction: a loss of potency.

The key is not to quit. Giving up on your work will make it worse. Practice makes perfect.

In my experience, this has happened for the few reasons that follow. There is most likely to be others, but perhaps these will help you.

1. Focusing on the items of the ritual, and not the ritual itself

Unless you are super rich or somehow find gold and other needed trappings for ceremonial magicians, it would be wise to ease up on yourself in this area. The point is to do the magic itself. You can get the rest later. The magic itself is what is most important. The practice is what makes you good at it.

2. Doubting yourself or the magic

Taking meticulous notes comes into play in remedying this problem. You will need these records to see if you made progress. Sometimes you have to fake it until you make it because you need to see it start to happen before you can believe it.

Western society taught us a belief in strict materialism and taught that the only thing that is rational or even real is a materialistic mindset. It is helpful to have ‘become invincible’ helps but if you haven’t gotten there yet, you will know when you do, then it is necessary to start off with small experiments before moving to bigger ones.

So, when you are trying to get into magic, you have to break that mindset before you can do more powerful magic. Think of it as going to the gym, and trying to bench press 300 pounds without having ever worked out before. It might be possible for some, but for most people, it would not go well.

For a while, I was working through modern magic. I would do the LBRP every night. I noticed a lot of shifts around me. How people perceive me changed, people were in some cases frightened. These reactions were how I knew it was working. The whole idea is to banish negativity from around you and your space. To purify and then move to the next level. However, this type of magic may not be your cup of tea, and that’s okay. The point is just to keep trying until you perfect the operation itself.

3. Inability to stay impartial

Androids style lust is the mother of all things for successful magical workings. You want to be able to care enough about the result of the working, but you also don’t want to upset us over it. It would be a form of medical constipation. You need to let that shit go.

If you raise all this energy and let it go, and then think about it the thing you asked for consistently, you are not allowing it to do its thing. The overthinking, especially negatively, will turn the energy into a yo-yo and eventually fizzles out completely.

Journal about it for future reference, and then go about your day.

4. Lack of focus

Focusing has been my biggest issue for a bit. I can do it, and I just don’t try. I have to do everything quick and dirty. I also have a ton of distractions I have to work through. So that’s something that I have to remedy.

There are tons of apps that help you with this. You just need to find one and do it. It does not have to be for a long time either. If you want, you can work up to some long drawn out meditation process. But part of doing a ritual is to get yourself into a meditative state and mindset anyway.

I listened to Memory: How to Develop, Train and Use it by William Walker Atkinson on LibriVox recently. The whole idea is to be able to focus on something you do not like to do. That helps you focus on things you do like to do. You can do this using an affirmation and then train yourself to be able to focus. In the book, it was suggested to start memorizing things such as poems. It might be beneficial for the magical practitioner to remember correspondence tables. All of this will help you to be able to focus.

In conclusion, this is only my opinion and also what I have had to personally work through over the course of the past few years. I know that a lot of other people have to work with different things. Don’t see any of these things as permanent challenges or stops to your practice just keep going, work through it, and your skill will grow.

Decisions, Decisions

31 Wednesday May 2017

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In true Taurean fashion, I spent a good year of time trying to decide what I’m going to do. 

I’ve taken a few classes on what other people do. And it’s not for me. 

There are tons of people using the same formula to promote their businesses. They are successful. Good for them.

It made me do the opposite. 

So, fuck it. Back to what I was doing. I have different goals now. 

So, here we go…

Tarot Blog Hop: New Tarot Deck

07 Thursday Jan 2016

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This blog post is a part of a monthly Tarot Professionals Blog Hop. Please click the links above and the links below the post to see how other Tarot Readers interact with a new Tarot deck.

So…you’ve received a new deck in one way or another. Maybe, it was a gift or you acquired it from a proprietor of some sort, it doesn’t matter, you still want to use it. The deck itself may seem like a lifeless paper product with a weird factory smell when you first get it, and that may put you off to using it for readings. This can be disheartening if you are like me and must use everything you own. Otherwise it was a waste of money, and a waste of an artist’s hard work and dedication. With a lot of great decks being a good chunk of change, you may expect your new magickal item to be instantly, well, magickal. The pictures may ‘call’ to you (aka you love the artwork), but when you open the box, you become a nervous wretch and forget everything you know about Tarot.

I have been getting new decks lately, even though I don’t really necessarily want them. Mostly, these have been given to me as gifts or as rewards for my participation in fundraisers. I have most of the ones that I want, and I am very particular about the type of artwork I prefer. However, I feel like I should work with these decks, because it seems that I should be able to read most any deck. Plus, it keeps your skills fresh, and it’s kind of fun to play with a deck that you have no connection to at all. Here are my techniques of transforming a deck of cards into powerful allies in your magickal arsenal.

Get Acquainted

The first thing I do after freeing my new friend from the confining restraints of its

The Court cards for the cups in the Tarot Illuminati (top), Thoth Tarot (middle), and the Michelangelo Tarot (bottom)

The Court cards for the cups in the Tarot Illuminati (top), Thoth Tarot (middle), and the Michelangelo Tarot (bottom)

packaging is take it out and feel it in my hands. I like to get a sense of how the card stock is in my hands when I shuffle or just take a card out of the deck. I take note of how slippery the deck is, because this will produce a ton of ‘jumpers’ while I shuffle.

I like to look at each individual card and familiarize myself with the order of the Majors, as well as the names of these Trump cards. In some decks,the Devil may be named Oppression. In Waite-Smith based decks, Strength is numbered as VIII and Justice is XII. In other decks, the Strength and Justice cards are named something else completely and their order is flipped. Sometimes, the Court cards may be in a different language than one you are familiar with or they aren’t what you are used to. For

example, you might have only used decks whose Court cards are Page/Knight/Queen/King, and now you have a deck that has them as Princess/Prince/Queen/Knight. This is when that little booklet included with all new decks becomes your best asset in becoming acquainted with your new deck.

Shuffle…A LOT!

One of the best things to do is shuffle your new deck. First, these cards are in order, and will clump together if not shuffled enough. It’s kind of like making cookies, but only stirring the ingredients 3 times with a small spoon then trying to bake them. Secondly, this simple action stirs life into your new found friends. You start to incorporate your essence into them, and this starts to charge your cards. I will usually play with a new deck for a good hour before using it for readings that I would put any stock in. While I am stirring the cards, I will think about a million things, and I may even be anxious or excited. I will also periodically lay out the cards as I think of questions. I keep the spreads very simple, and I do not ask super serious life changing questions. I will ask questions that I know, or I will even ask the cards about their personal tastes. Asking playful, yet respectful, questions calms my own anxiety, and allows me to fully connect with my new deck. I will use the booklet if need be.

Everywhere I Go…

One of the most important things I do is take my new deck everywhere with me if it’s portable. It goes to work with me, and it goes to the grocery store. It is not uncommon for me to have at least 4 different divination tools on my person. This may be a little harder for menfolk as they may not have a knapsack that they carry with them. Another way is to sleep with the cards nearby you. This continues to aide you in not only strengthening your intimate connection, and continues to charge your cards. This will also remind you to keep working with the cards. I feel that by doing this, you really establish the cards as a magickal tool that you can trust and work with on a daily basis.

While with ritual tools you want to consecrate these items for specific purposes, because you do not use them on a daily basis. I do not do this with my cards or other divination devices. I establish them as a tool for this purpose by passively attuning them to my energy. They then become a part of me, and my cards are a trusted member of my life.

I hope this was helpful! See the other blogs to get different ideas, and try them out to see what works best for you!

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Exciting Kickstarter Tarot Project!

04 Wednesday Feb 2015

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Tarot Fundamentals Kickstarter Campaign

Lo Scarebeo Tarot and other names in the Tarot world are currently working tirelessly to create a complete work centered around the subject. There is a Kickstarter campaign going on right now! If you are interested in the project, please visit the campaign for more details!

Numerological Energies for the New Year

09 Tuesday Dec 2014

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Wouldn’t it be nice to be able to be forewarned as to what you may be dealing with on a yearly, monthly, or daily basis? While there are a ton of divinatory tools at your disposal, simple math can help you deal with everyday, physical energies. You can then add on to all of this using Runes, Tarot, Lenormand, or whatever else you are wonderfully attracted to.

So, let’s get started!

Calculating your Yearly number:

First, add up the month of your birth, day of your birth, and year you are looking into.

Month of Birth                   4
Day of Birth                 +  28
Year of Inquiry              +2015
Total Number for the year     2047

Next, we are going to break this down into a single number, unless it’s 11 or 22, by adding the individual numbers together.

2+0+4+7 = 13
Still not done! Now time to simplify the number even more.
1+3 = 4
So, 4 is the final answer!

So, the number 4 would be the energies that were playing into your life on a physical level.

Now, you try it! The meanings of numbers are HERE

Calculating your Monthly number:

Take the Year’s number that you had calculated. So, mine is 4. Now, you are going to add the yearly number to the month in question.

January:          4+1 = 5
February:         4+2 = 6
March:            4+3 = 7
April:            4+4 = 8
May:              4+5 = 9
June:             4+6 = 10; 1+0 = 1
July:             4+7 = 11
August:           4+8 = 12; 1+2 = 3
September:        4+9 = 13; 1+3 = 4
October:          4+10 = 14; 1+4 = 5
November:         4+11 = 15; 1+5 = 6
December:         4+12 = 16; 1+6 = 7

The meanings of numbers are HERE

I did the whole year so you can see how you would break down the numbers to their simplest form. You do not do this with the number 11 or 22. These are considered Master Numbers, and they do not need to be simplified into a single digit.

Calculating your Daily Number:

Now, you can go even further down the number rabbit hole, and calculate the number for each day of the month. You do this as follows:

For October, the number that was calculated was 5. I would then take the number 5 and add it to the day that I want to know about. So, let’s take the 6th of October.

Month Number (October)      5
Day of the Month (October) +6
                           11
11 – This is the energy you are working with on the 6th of October.

Let’s try another. Let’s take the month number for April, and the 11th of April.

Month Number (April)           8

Day in the Month (April)     +11
                              19
1+9 = 10; 1+0 = 1
This is the energy you are working with on the 11th of April.

The meanings of numbers are HERE

I hope this has been informative. Enjoy 2015!

Numerology – Meanings of Numbers

07 Sunday Dec 2014

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When it comes to any meanings in the divinatory sense, everyone has their own keywords that they prefer to use. While doing any sort of research will prove that people just kind of make things up as they go it seems. Personally, these are the keywords that I use for the numbers. Mainly, because that was what I was taught a long time ago and old habits die hard. I like to use one word keywords, because they convey a thought or feeling for every person based on their own map of reality.As you read through this list, you may notice that the fun numbers are the odd numbers, while the even numbers are a little more about hard work. I like to think that this keeps balance in the Universe. Plus, if we only dreamt of great things, but never worked on those great things, we would never move forward on our path.

The Keywords for the Numbers:

1: Individuality: This number means that you are working with the energy of being separate from the rest of the people around you. It speaks of how you treat yourself on an outer level, and asks us to work on taking care of the self, first.

2: Cooperation: The number two talks to us of togetherness. How we work with the other people around us. It asks us to focus on how we are treating others around us.

3: Creativity: The number 3 is a magic number for sure. This kind of magic speaks to us about how we are using our imagination to make our world a better place. It asks us to think outside the box.

4: Hard Work: The number 4 tells us that we will need to grit our teeth, and work hard. This number is about getting things done. It asks us to find the self-discipline we need to work through our responsibilities at hand.
5: Personal Freedom: This number is all about letting your hair down. It’s not about being irresponsible with our actions, but letting go of that which may be holding us down. Letting go of guilt, changing old ways of thought, being flexible, and having some fun is what this number asks of us.

6: Decision: The number 6 is telling us that a decision needs to be made. This could be a big decision that has been on your mind for a while or a tiny one that you think may have no real impact on your life. The decision that you make may make a lasting impression on our lives. This number asks us to make decisions wisely, but at the same time not to overthink the decision.

7: Introspection: The number 7 tells us that we need a little time to think. We need time to work on spiritual matters, and spend some alone time working on spiritual pursuits. This number asks us to seek out knowledge to better ourselves.

8: Business: Now we’re back to work! The number 8 is all about taking care of our business pursuits. This number is also about leadership, control, and power. This number wants us to focus on how we can balance our career pursuits so that we do not step on someone else in the process. It also asks us not to become over-bearing tyrants on those who may be more sensitive than we are.

9: Completion: The number 9 is all about completing the things that we may have been putting off. This could be creative projects, and sometimes it could even signify the end of a relationship. This number gives us relief from stagnant situations, so we can move forward on our path. It asks us to look around us, and see what needs to be changed.

11: Illumination: The number 11 is all about being a light in the darkness for other people. This is like being a flame, and all the little moths gather around your light. While working with this energy may seem like a wonderfully good time, there is always a downside. The people that may be attracted to you could not be the best of people; however, they may be a mirror of your own thoughts and actions. This number asks us to look at the people around us as reflections of where we happen to be on our path at that present moment. If you do not like to see, it is time to make some changes in yourself.

22: Master Builder: The number 22 helps you make your dreams into a reality. This is an auspicious time to start those things that you may have previously believed to be unattainable. The energy of a 22 asks us to dream big, and work on those dreams. This is not a time to sit on your laurels.

Now, these are the numbers that I have personally been using for the past 10 years. Some people like to use the numbers 0 and 33. Since I am not familiar with how these work, if you wish to look into this further, by all means go for it!

Recommended Reading:
Numerology by Hans Decoz

Tips: Tarot Reading for Yourself

22 Sunday Jun 2014

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tarotWhen I first started to learn how to intuitively interpret Tarot cards, I did a ton of readings for myself. I was going through a very hard time, and I would do a “million” readings every day. However, the massive amounts of readings I was doing were only useful in helping me quell my anxiety. The readings themselves were of no use due to the bad questions and sheer number of readings. While this helped me learn Tarot, it did not produce valuable readings. There is definitely an art to reading the cards for yourself, but it’s not impossible.

The key to doing a reading for yourself is to put your feelings aside for the “outcome” of the question. Fear or excitement towards what the reading is going to “say” is why people have a hard time reading cards for themselves in the first place. An Intuitive or Psychic can read all day long for other people because they have nothing invested in the outcome of the reading. However, some may find it difficult to do a reading for themselves until they learn to trust exactly what they are seeing within the reading, and not focus on what they want the reading to tell them about the situation. That sort of manipulation of the outcome is what makes the reading you gave yourself incorrect, and this can be discouraging to someone who is just starting to learn Tarot.

Any and all of the tips below can be used to help keep yourself neutral during a reading, and they will also help with many other intuitive readings as well.

  • Meditate: It is helpful to meditate thoroughly before doing a reading for yourself. This helps you get rid of any anxiety that may contribute to manipulation of the meanings. When you do a reading you should feel neutral and keep your emotional feelings or fears of the outcome out of the reading. Remember that the future can be changed if you do not like something. The cards are a great way to guide you to the help you need if your reading is less than desirable.
  • Blind Reading: You can perform “blind” readings by writing down questions, and placing them in an envelope. All you need is several questions, and similar envelopes to place the questions in. Mix the envelopes up, and mark the envelopes with numbers. This way when you are writing your reading into your journal, you can determine which answer belongs to the envelope. You can mix them up again after you put the numbers on them or flip them over. Pull one envelope out at a time. (Make sure that you are only putting one question in each envelope, so that you are not getting confused as to which question goes to which answer. It works best if you wait a few days so that you have forgotten what you asked.)
  • JournalingJournal: It is always a good thing to write down all your readings that you do for yourself. This way you can look back at them at a later date and analyze the outcome. This will give you confidence, and your accuracy will improve. Also, sometimes we interpret a card a tad bit differently than what it meant to say. You will be able to see the exact outcome of the reading that you had given yourself, and make changes to what a Tarot card means to you.

In conclusion, if you do readings for others there is no reason you cannot do them for yourself. If you are just starting out, doing readings for yourself is a great way to learn Tarot or any other form of divination. It is easier for you to check your progress, and gain the necessary confidence to begin reading for other people without the aid of a book. Feel free to use a book for your own readings while you are learning. Eventually you won’t need it!

Most importantly, relax and have fun!

A History…of sorts

25 Sunday May 2014

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I have been a pagan for 20 years now. Not that I have been one religiously by any means. Things come up in our lives and it is good to take a break and reflect upon the work we have done. Even Crowley took a break for years before returning to his occult studies. There is nothing wrong with that. I find that I tend to take breaks after studying extensively on one area of expertise. I look into what I am researching as far as I can, and practice daily. It is hard to find information as deep as I would like to go. Usually, though, it was just nonsense that was distracting to me. Combine that with a dead end in information, and Viola, a break is to be had whether I want it or not.

The moon herself takes a break 12 times a month. No one should ever feel guilty taking a break from long hours of reading, everyday rituals, and hoping no one comes in accidentally. I do seem to get The worst of all was the significant other who was abusive and thoroughly embarrassed by what he saw as an annoying hobby that everyone around would hate HIM for. People did stay away from him, but not because of my supposed “weirdo crap.”

I even completely lost all confidence in my path, because he decided that it would be cool to join a group. I decided to try it out, and I disliked it immensely. The experience seemed dogmatic and fanatical, and that was the reason that I despised another dogmatic religion. It made me want to literally vomit, and I stopped associating with the members of this supposed group.

I never thought I would do well in a group, and I never joined one until then. So, maybe that in itself wasn’t the shiniest example of working with others in a coven like setting. These people weren’t really pagan, witches, or anything that made natural sense to me. I am not quite sure what they would call themselves, but the group they represented wasn’t for me.

Eventually, I want to start a study group of sorts. I will just start there. I can be difficult to work with myself, because I am stubborn. I am fine until someone interrupts me or tells me flat out that my way of thinking is wrong. Regardless, I am finally coming to terms with the fact that I enjoy having others around to discuss spiritual practices with. I do go through a lot of intellectual changes when I am going through a stale period. For example, I did not see the point of spells until recently.

Although, these periods come and go, my time is spent reflecting what I had learned when I was studying so hard when they are here, and reading and doing new things when that period ends.

The Law of Attraction Part 2

18 Sunday May 2014

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I feel that the real secret about the Secret is that it does not work for everyone. So, this is a buyer beware if you will.

When I had been going through a hard time last year, I tried to use the secret to make my life better. I love the concept of the movie, but its techniques do not work for me. What worked for me was to get really threatening, angry, and hateful. I thought that was really odd that love and light only provided disappointment. Then, I realized I have never been about all that New Age foo foo nonsense.

The real reason that my negativity worked better, was the intense emotion sent out into the universe. It was the psychic drama that was released that made things start to actually happen. It didn’t have to be a negative emotion either; just a strong one.

Another thing that helped a great deal was that I got rid of any negative nancies that were around me. Those are the people that say they are your friends. However, when you tell them your plans, they somehow ruin them. They either tell you it can’t be done, or they think you can’t do it. I think of this as a kind of astral cock blocking. It negates all the hard positive thinking you just did. I don’t think that everyone does this intentionally, but the best thing to do is to just keep quiet until you have what you want. This way, you keep your friends and you get what you want.

Lastly, you actually have to get out there and do something about your situation. This is the one thing they say in The Secret that I full heartily believe. If you are looking for that special someone to spend a while with, then you need to get out there. I suggest that you know what you want in a significant other, or you will attract vultures.

The secret is nothing more than performing a spell every single moment of your life. So, keep your intentions a SECRET, and get out there and notice things around you.